The Life of the Nickness

OK, so the party is going pretty strong. Lots of people, lots of people who can't speak a coherent sentence(Levi included) I think I might actually be the only sober person here. Heck, by the end of the night I'll still be sober. Poor me.
Anyway, Tonight has been pretty cool. I”m actually really happy with the way tings are going.
I got to stop by Bloockbuster tonight as well, which was really cool. They closed at 10pm tonight. It was awesome for them. Jenn says hi, and shes drunk off her fucking ass. She told me to write that, and I don't even know her. LOL!
Anyway, I better be going. Gotta make sure no one is going to pass out/vomit in my room
Happy New Years everyone!!!!

Well, the drinks have been bought, the apartment is clean, and all my valuables are hidden in my bedroom. It's about 4.30 and people should start getting here in 4 hours. Both bedrooms are offlimits. I really hope no one trys to get into my room, or else I'll have to yell at them. I am really thinking about just staying in my room all evening. Being a hermit, lol.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a very safe and happy new year.
Always,
Nick

ps: send me money!! lol!

Well, It's midnight. New Years Eve. I'm going to bed. Got to sleep alot if tonight I plan on partying. Jb and Sierra are over, they are about to leave, but they were watching Star Wars episode One.
Levi just got back from helping his friend Mike pick someone up from Richmond, and now hes complaining that I drank half a bottle(a small bottle) of Mike's Hard Lemonade. I don't really see the big deal, there were two left–an open, half finished one, and an unopened one. I drank the open one, leaving him the unopened one. You'd think he'd be happy I didn't drink them both. Oh well.
When I wake up I gotta take Levi to my parents' house so he can officially finish the tile job, then he needs me to go buy some stuff(21 year old stuff) for the party later on. I'll probably end up staying in my room and hiding out, bringing in the new year sleeping. Hey, I did it that way last year, and my dad has been doing it like that for 25 years now, so whats the big deal? It's not like I have anyone special to share it with.
OK, I'm still tired. I'm going to bed now.

OK, new avatars!! No more Yugi! (I still love him, but he was getting old) We can all thank Mata at The Other Side for these great images. Hey, by the way, go check out his site, he has a great many mini-movies. My favorites are the Mittens series, Samuri Lapin series, The Little Goth Girl series, and the, wait, wait–thats practially all of them! Ok, OK, I love his site. If I had money I'd give him some.
At least go check it out

Ok, so I just put my resume on monster.com.
I am really hoping to have a better job by the end of mext week. (better meaning more money, more/better hours)
Wish me luck

Breena just called, I owe her more money, for evil stuff dealing with the car.
This is all crap, I never should have stayed at VFCC, I should have gone back to NCU as soon as I could.
I once told my sister quitting blockbuster was the worst mistake in my life. Then I had to look at her and change it. I said “No, quiiting blockbuster was the second worse mistake in my life. What was the first?” And in unison we both said “Marrying Breena”
Sure the worse mistake some will argue is me not going back to NCU, but if you think about it, the only reason I didn't go back was because of Breena, so it all works out.
Bah Humbug!

I just saw a preview for the next new episode of 7th Heaven. Apparently Matt drops out of medical school and Sarah(his wife) leaves him. Wow, that sounds like my life right there. Something tells me I'll have to see that episode.

I still need money.

Well, Christmas has come and gone. The past couples of days after Christmas have been fun, going to the mall with my mom and sister, shopping and eating free food; generally having a great time. Today is sunday. It's the “do nothing” day at the apartment. Levi has a friend over, and they're just chillin' in his room. Eventually we'll have to go to Food Lion and get some food, with the xmas money Melissa gave us. We really need laundry detergent and food. I might call Jb and see if he wants to come over and bring the Cds he got for xmas. That way I can copy them to my computer. Ofcourse, I'll offer to let him do the same.
Tonight Levi and I are planning on going to Mosaic. Click the name and it should open another window and take you to their website. It's been a while since I used the HTML code for links, but hopefully the link works and I remembered it correctly.
Theres not really much to tell. I have a few options of where I should go with my life. Either way, come March, I will not be renewing the lease on the apartment. From there, I can either move back home, save money, and go to college(which college is still a mystery, I really want to go back to NCU but my mom says I should go to South Eastern) or move to Levi's house, save money, and eventually buy a townhouse with him. Then we'll fix it up, live there, and when we eventually decide to sell it we'll split the profits. Hmm choices, choices.
Whatever shall I do?
Oh, I went ahead and took my drug test on Friday. Hopefully I can start working by Monday(tomorrow).
I think I'm going to post my resume online though–I need more money and last time I did that I got a great job opportunity(even though it eventually fell though it because they wanted someone with 2 years of management experience and at the time I only had 1)
OK, so I'm going to go now. I'll probably end up updating later.
ciao.

Ok, so after my last post, I took a shower, got dressed(damn I looked fly)and went back to my parents' house for some picture taking. Ofcourse, Sierra has to make a bitch comment about how I have my jacket on and I should take it off for the pictures, but both me and my sister shot her down.(good for us!) I mean, come on, the jacket is part of the look, and we all know how perfectly awesome I look in my jacket.
Anyway, I think the pictures will come out good.
After that, my mom, my sister, and I all sat in the living room and discusses JB's little situation.(I'd go into more detail, but God only knows who reads this thing, and I don't want to get him in trouble with his beloved.)
What else did we do? Oh yeah, we talked about Melissa and Justin(her boyfriend–he best be good to her!) and Mom and Melissa had the audacity to ask if Breena and I were(dare I say it?) fuck-buddies. They only asked cause Breena came over last night to pick up her gift that I got her(Pirates of the Caribbean DVD) and they said we looked awfully close. Well duh! We were married for like, a year! But thats over now. Unfortunately for me, this Christmas I am single.
Then, mom left to go to Sierra's parents' house for some food(well, and to be nice because she was invited. Notice how no one invited Melissa or I?), while Melissa and I went upstairs and watched season one of the Simpsons in her room(it was one of her xmas gifts)
About 30 minutes ago I went and played with Toby and Tiffany in the yard. And now I sit here writing in my journal. yeah for me. Dinner is almost done. I am hungry.

OK, so I’m back at my apartment. Just got home in order to take a shower, get changed, and go back to my house so my sister can have a picture of her, my brother, and myself by the christmas tree. I could have showered and changed there, but my dad is being a dick and said I wasn’t allowed. When I got to my parent’s house, My gifts were the only ones left. Everyone else had already opened theres. Then Sierra started being a bitch cause my mom was handing me my gifts(my mom wanted to) and I was not physically getting up and getting them myself. Oh Joy.
Toby couldnt even come in from inside and help me open gifts this year. He loves halping me open my gifts, and then playing with the paper. That was kinda like my present to him, since I didn’t get him anything this year. Actually, I was so poor I didn’t get anyone anything, but I only really care about Toby. Tiffany tried to bite me last night when I was petting her(the bitch) so I don’t care about her(ok, I’ll be honest, we all know Toby is my favorite)
Christmas was….ok. I could say other things, but hey, it’s christmas, and I don’t want to seem like I’m being a dick myself. Heres what I got:
socks (lots of them, hell, I could probably give everyone I know a pair and still have some for myself,lol!)
Newton’s Cradle (I made the mistake of looking at this too long while I was with my mom one day at JCPenny’s, and telling her how cool it looked. Now I have one.)
Pair of Workout clothes (Levi will be happy)
Nail Kit (OK, so I knew I had this one coming, I just forgot about it. two gay french guys in the mall sold like, four to my mom and I. I think it’s an awesome product)
Sweater (From my sister. Usually I don’t like sweaters, but she has great taste and they are the only gift I ever get that I actually wear all the time. Heck, I wore her sweatergift from last year to this year’s christmas get-together)
Smallville, Season One (I was with my mom when she picked this up. I knew it was for me. I like smallville.)
Nothing from Grandma (for some reason, when my grandma on my dad’s side was packing our gifts, she either forgot to include mine[which is what my dad thinks] or just didn’t get me anything
Money from Abuella (I can always count on her.)
Money from my parents (Ok, so they said they weren’t going to give money this year, but they did. good for them! But, not to sound like an evil, spoiled child, including the money my abuella gave me, I’m still 175$ short on the rent money. Something tells me I’ll be begging Levi or someone else to loan me the money til I get paid)
A giftcard for Food Lion for Levi and I in the amount of 50$ (from my sister. Thank God for her)
A giftcard for a free haircut at HairCuttery (my mom wants me to go get a haircut. I think it’s a wasted gift;I like how my hair looks, not too long, not too short. Sierra made some bitch comment. Oh well.)

Well, that was it. Only one slice of Pizza(for some reason my dad only wanted me to eat one slice for breakfast, even though there were six left and no one eats pepperoni pizza except me. can we all say “se chow!” I know thats probably not the correct spelling, but oh well) No Stargate Boxed seasons and not enough money, so now I have to beg others for it. Breena said she’d pay the electric bill this month, as long as I pay her back. If her offer still stands I might just take her up on it.
Again, it was an ok christmas. I just have to remember that there are other out there who got less than me or even nothing for christmas.
Joy to the world.
I hope y’alls day was better than mine.

Hmm,

~~ok, so I originally wrote this at 1:34pm, but my mom’s computer was messing up, so I had to post it later.~~

Well, as a post for christmas eve I think it’d be a cool and great idea to just answer the questions someone has been asking me in the comment section of my journal. I like reading comments. It makes me feel as though my life is so important people keep “tuning in” to see whats going on. Much like a reality Tv show. Yeah, I should have one of thoses. It’d be a hit. hey MTV, or Fox, or whatever station that does them!!—-Give me my own show!! You’ll make money, I’ll make money, people will laugh, and we’ll all be happy. OK, time to start the real entry.

First off, in case I didn’t make it clear enough, I had to wake up at 5am those past two days so that I could drive my roommate levi to my parents’ house so he could finish working on the kitchen floor(he is tiling it for my mother) yet today, we woke up late, and he will not be able to come and do it until later(probably tonight)

Wow. Today is Christmas eve. Tomorrow is Christmas. I can hardly believe it. Do you realize last year at this time I was married, living a very way cool happy life? Now I live in my apartment with my best friend(no offense Levi) with no life, a bad job, and no relationship prospects. What a difference a year can make.
Looking back, it has always seemed to me that my past has been a lot happier than my present or my immediate future. I’m one of those people who tend to live in the past. And why not? I’ve had so many great experiences in so many wonderful countries.
But I remember watching the Twilight Zone one night, and an episode came on, about this 30 year old man who kept living in the past. Remembering the good old time, so to speak. Well, it’s difficult to describe it, but through some weird time warp, he was able to remember that his past was not all fun and games, there was some heartbreak in there too.
Thats what I have to remember. Even those my past seems really great, it’s got ALOT of heartbreak and torment in there. I remember when I was getting rid of Breena’s stuff, it was really difficult to just throw it away. So I didn’t. I kept it up, sort of like an “alter”. I called it the “alter of my failed marriage” complete with dead roses. It became some what of a joke. Then Levi had to remind me that with that there it’d be really hard to move on to something better. So what did I do? I burned the unity candle til it went out, packed it all up, and gave it to Breena. I was done with that part of my past. And even though my present isn’t doing too great night now, I gotta look towards my future. Thats really want my life is all about–What I want to do, who I want to become.
If I don’t focus on that, I will continue to do what I have been doing these past few weeks since I quit my job–nothing. And even though doing nothing seems really great, as the days go by and time passes, I find myself wanting to do something–anything different than what I am doing now. I really want to be a Pastor of CE. Thats really want I want to do. I just have to gain the willpower to tread towards that goal and not loook back.
Wow, I really typed alot there, didn’t I? I’m sure there so much more I could type. Infact, I know there is. If anyone is interested in knowing more of my crazy thoughts, you should email me, nick@ztug.net
lol. I pretend like my life is so interesting, lol.
But hey, back on the subject–it’s christmas eve! Now I don’t know about you all, but Christmas eve is almost better than Christmas for me. For one, On Christmas eve, We usually have a big dinner(this year it doesn’t look like we will, since the floor won’t be done) but then we get to pick one gift from under the tree and open it. That is always so exciting to me. I always try to pick the gift that I think will like the most–that way, if all my other gifts are horrible the next day(which they never are) I am still surprised and happy for that one night. Does that make sense? Actually, reading back I kinda sound really greedy. I hope my parents don’t read this thing, lol!
Christmas morning I used to wake up sooo early, like if I didn’t wake up early someone would come in and steal all my gifts. Nowadays I tend to sleep in and enojy a morning off, then strool downstairs and, once everyone else is up, find my spot on the floor(If I’m lucky I get a chair)then we all open one gift at a time until the tree is empty.
We then pick up, take out the trash, and eventually take down all the Christmas decorations.
Thats pretty much my christmas right there.

OK, so I would write more, but my mom is home(I’m typing this from her house) and I convinced her to drive me around town shopping so I can find some last minute gifts for some people(my dad surprisingly gave me 20$ to do this!)
ta ta for now!

ps: I still need money.

ok, so someone posted a comment in my last entry and I responded to it. I've been up since 5am, and I have to get up at 5am again tomorrow. Please read the reply to update yourselves on my wonderful life.
I still need money.
everyone go listen to “Mistaken” and “My Heart Goes Out” both by Warren Barfield.
Both songs greatly express the mood I've been in for a while.

Still searching for that boy who had the faith to move a mountain. Want the fire back.

SO by tommorrow I should have a job. I have an Interview at Office Depot, and I know I’ll interview well, I only hope they give me the money I want(10$ an hour or more) I don’t really know what they want me for, which will be interesting. But-assuming I get a job there, I predict I’ll be management by June of 2004. Not trying to by cocky, I just know my level of abilities and skills are worth the Management title.
I’m listening to Lauchcast right now. Someone all these love songs are playing. Bah, humbug.
Tonight, by the time I go to sleep, the kitchen floor at my parents’ house should be done. That will be cool, cause I know my mom wanted it done by Christmas Eve.
I still need money.
this is the end of my entry.

as you can see it is about 4am. I just got home from watching Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. I won't give away any spoilers, but let me say this: Go watch that movie. Go watch it, even if you have to buy the first two, because you can't remember them. You must go watch that movie. Even if you have read the books, go watch that movie. It's way awesome. As I said, it's 4am, and I just got back from watching the very first showing of it–rather than go to bed, I wanted to stay up a few more minutes to let you all know: Go watch that movie.
Oh, and if you get the same previews I did–well, God must not like Jim Carry very much after “Bruce Almighty”–the powers that be let people ruin “Dumb and Dumber” with a sequel, and now, for whatever reason, someone has decided to ruin another great Jim Carry movie–The Mask. Be warned–I suggest you close you eyes and “boo” when the preview comes on. I did, along with alot of people in the in theater.

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

OK, so it is already noon. Today there is so much to do, but I know I will have time for it all. I will make time for it all.
Heres the list:

1.Go to Office Depot, turn in my application, speak with a manager, and hopefully get some sort of Job there.

2.Go to Centreville Movie complex and spend lots of money buying 7 LOTR:ROFK movie tickets (the showing is at 12.05am) I WILL be getting reimbursed by everyone I’m buying a ticket for.

3. Go to the Burger King across from Blockbuster(where I used to work) and speak with Mike’s dad. He called me yesterday, understanding that Mike owed me some money, and that I still had some of his stuff. With any luck, I’ll get my 518$, and Mike’s dad will get all of Mike’s stuff. (yes, I know this still doesn’t take care of the whole car crash incident, but I am hoping Mike and I can just go to the police department and get the police report changed, without me having to go to the police department by myself and filing “ID theft/fraud”. It’s something I really don’t want to do, but something I just might have to.

4.Somewhere in today’s mess, Levi and I have to take Jen back o the Metro station.

5. About 9pm, JB and Sierra will be coming to the apartment to hang out until the movie starts. For some odd reason, I have to give them a ride. I have no idea when Levi’s brother or the other people coming will be there–or if they’ll even be there at all(they might meet us at the theatre)

Thats about all I have to do today. Hopefully(God willingly) everything will be done just as I need it to be done.

Cheers.

OK, so I don't update as much as I would like to, but this will have to do for now.
I still don't have a job.
I had to call BBV today, and I was reminiscing so much I actually asked Graig to ask Dennis that if I tried to come back would he re-hire me. I already know the answer is “no” but for some reason I asked Graig to ask.
Today has been an ok day. I'm still really short of money–so much so that I had to transfer 25$ from my savings into my checking to take care of a negative balance. Not good at all. Ah, but payday is friday. My last BBV check. yeah for me.
Also, late last week, I discovered a new Anime named Naruto. I'm not really big into anime, except for Yu-Gi-Oh, but Daniel introduced me, and well, lets just say the thing is really great. Very funny stuff. Everyone should go download episode 1 and tell me what they think.
I applied at Micron today. Tomorrow I'll go apply at Office Depot. Yeah, I love job hunting. OMG, I just realized this–last year at this time I was job hunting as well. Could it be? The curse of the Christmas Season? Hopefully next year at this time I won't be jobless, or else I'll really start to wonder.
Been chillin at my parents house more and more lately.It snowed, so of-course I went over there to shovel the driveway and sidewalks. Earlier this afternoon while I was over there I shoveled the snow that was left on the deck so it could dry easier.
OK, “Will and Grace” is on now, so I better get going.

OK, so We're all woken up this morning by the sound of the telephone. It's breena, wanting to tell me something stupid. I have always told her not to call in the morning, cause people are still sleeping. Then I hang up on her. Then she calls back. I hang up on her. And she called back. And I hang up on her. By this time everyone in the apartment is awake(we had friends stay the night), and not in a good mood. I then check my e-mail, and get this way bitchy e-mail from her that was not warranted and she had no right to write. I'd include it on here except that I deleted it. I'm sure she has a copy for her wonderful records. So I call her and tell her that I never want to talk, e-mail, or see her again. What does she do? She calls back. I hang up on her. Repeat cycle again. Finally Daniel answers the phone and shes in the middle of telling him “my parents are very mad…” and I hang up on her. You think she would take the hint, right? But no….She calls back. I answer. Shes like, “my parents have paid your car insurance for a whole year now and if you don't leave me alone they're going to take it back” I hang up on her, yet again.
How dare she threaten me. I mean, come on. I was leaving her alone. Shes the stupid idiot that kept calling me.
Just cause I asked her for money she gets all pissed off. Shes like, I'm not going to change my life around just cause you need money. Which I agree with, except–wait a minute…didn't she ruin my life by marrying me, then deciding she wanted a divorce without even trying to work stuff out? I'd say thats a pretty big life change for me. Why shouldn't I return the favor?
Ah, but now I'm being an ass. It all goes back to the whole “shes the bitch the ruined my life” thing. Except now, shes not just content to ruin my life, she has to ruin my sleep as well.

ok, so I'm not jewish, but I'm listening to launchcast, and Adam Sandler is on right now. I am back at LANferno. For some reason, comcast internet isn't working. So I'm back. I'm thinking about getting a membership, that way it's cheaper.
I went looking for a job today–it was kinda ok. Best Buy isn't hiring for Dec, but they're looking for help in Jan. I also applied at Office Depot and Circut(sp?) city.
OMG, I was just checking my previous posts and I so did not tell you all. Mike is no longer with Levi and I at the apartment. It's a long story, and I really don't want to go into details, but if you're looking for a place to live for about 300-400$ a month, come talk to me. The apartment looks way cool though–Levi got Mike's old room, and I totally redid my room, with Levi's help. If anyone out there wants to come over and see it (and maybe bring some food or money or something with them) feel free.
I talked to breena about giving me some money this month for rent, cause we're po[so po we can't afford the extra 'or"] since shes still on the lease and it would be a good idea so we don't get bad renter's credit and at first she said yes, but then she called back and was all evil and was like “I don't think I can give you any” just cause she wants to buy a new TV. Well, if you gotta be selfcentered and selfish–might as well name yourself Sabrina.
Sorry bout that hatred, it's been one of those days, and I'm back to the whole “shes the bitch that ruined my life” thing. Seriously though, I would be better off if I had never even spoken to her. Why oh why did I not listen to like, everybody I knew when they told me not to marry her?!?!?! But oh well. Time travel doesn't exist yet, so I can't do anything about it.
Levi is over here at LANferno with me. He's all pimped out, even got his 8-ball stick with him. LOL! I look good today too. I need to look better though–once my time is up over here I gotta go and exercise at the gym at the apartment. I kinda wigged out yesterday cause I was not having a good day, but I definitly have to go tonight. Do some jogging, working on my arms and my chest. yeah for me. Frank Sinatra is on Launchcast now.
I'm running out of things to say, so I think I'm gonna go.

I'm at LANferno now. Internet at the apartment isnt working due to comcast problems in manassas. I'm tired, and its been a busy, event filled day. Those events have been fairly boring, but it's all good. Soon I will get another job. Til then, if you wanna send me money, please do so.
Um, not much else to say right now. I still gotta go home and clean the apartment. Sorry for the recent quick, non-detailed posts. I promise I'll sit down one day and really fill you all in on whats been going on.