I start working tomorrow

Ok, so I'm about to head off to bed–I'll need some good REM sleep since I have to wake up early(think 7:15) to get ready for work tomorrow. Everyone wish me luck, lets hope I wake up on time, and get there early. It's training day for me, and I really want to be at my best(so they know what they're dealing with, lol)
I know I'll be nervous, but I'm hoping that my “cool but very professional” attitude will shine through and help me get to know a few employees.
Also, on a different note–the rent was due on the first, but they don't charge a penelty unless it hasn't be received by 5pm on the 5th. Tomorrow is the 5th. I've made out the check, now all I have to do is drop it off BEFORE I go to work.
You know, I really hope theres good music playing tomorrow on the ride over.
Soon I will have money(ofcourse, the money I get will go to all my wonderful bills, but at least now I'll be able to pay for them)
If you want to send me money though, feel free, go right ahead, I won't deny your right to be generous. LOL
g' night all.

I have no idea why I'm typing this

OK, so I can't sleep again. I need to go get another shot(or 5) of After Shock(a way cool peppermint and cinnamon flavoured liqueur) Wow that is some good stuff. Everybody(well, everybody over 21) go out and try some.
I finished my profile on emode, if anyone wants to go there and check it out my user name is nickshadows and my email address is nick@ztug.net
I need guideance in my life.
My apartment is too hot, I bet Levi turned on the heat. Either that, or I'm more drunk than I thought I was. Hey, at least I'm typing in here and not typing drunken emails to my ex girlfriends. LOL. Only a few of you will get that little inside joke, but hey, it's an acomplishment.
I hope everyone is having a great evening. Tomorrow(or rather, today) is my last day off before I start my new job at Office Depot on Monday.
I really don't want to work there–I'm hoping the district leader for Habor Freight and Tool will call me back and offer me a job, then I'll be making anywhere from 28-31 thousand a year. Way to go me. Everybody go pray about it, ok?
As I always am,
~~Nick~~

this <i>IS</I> my life.

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along