The Life of the Nickness

Well, It's Memorial Day. I guess the first thing I should do is thank anyone reading this for being in the military–if you weren't in it, God only knows what they'd do. And lets just say I am never joining up. So if the draft comes–yay England! LOL.

Hmm, last night was fun! I'll skip my thoughts/comments on the morning service, and go straight to talking about Mosaic at night. Because of the HOliday, they had a cool little indoor bar-b-que going on, and we started at 5pm, instead of 6. Basically, there was the bar-b-que, then some concert, and then we watched “disney's The Kid.” Ahh, when I first got there I was immediately thrown into a foosball game. I love the game, even though I'm not that good. Don't get me wrong though–this Cuban still has a few foosball skills hidden in his raft. hehehehe. After our game(we won twice and lost 3 times) it was time to eat! yay for free food! Just as I was done eating the Sadrs got there. Ofcourse there was much more fun after that–and more foosball. And ofcourse, just like himself, Levi was sporting a new tee-shirt only I found funny. It read: “SECRET SERVICE: your boyfriend never has to know” LOL. I started laughing at his shirt and he was like “See? I knew someone would like it!” It was way fun. Then the concert started and went to sit down and be lazy and watch it. ALl in all it was ok, but not the best thing I've seen. Afterwards, right before the movie started, people were back to playing ping pong(which I don't play) and foosball, and ofcourse the volleyball net was up so people went outside to do that. Anyways, I sat in the back of church and made funny comments with Pastor Kim about the last 10 minutes of the movie. It was fun. Then Levi drove me home(cause my car is still at Carmax! ahh!)
that was pretty much my night.
Fun fun, huh?
TTFN!

HOLY SONNETS X.

“Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so ;
For those, whom thou think’st thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy picture[s] be,
Much pleasure, then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul’s delivery.
Thou’rt slave to Fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy, or charms can make us sleep as well,
And better than thy stroke ; why swell’st thou then ?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally,
And Death shall be no more ; Death, thou shalt die.”

both my eyes are totally bloodshot. And I swear I haven't even touched alcohol. I wonder if there is another reason eyes become bloodshot? maybe I'm coming down with Ebola. YAY!

Right now I have no car. I've had no car since yesterday at 5pm, when I went out to the Micron parking lot for my break, and discovered my car wouldn't start. I got rides from work, and then again a ride to and from work today. My Parents called carmax(where I got the car) they had it towed today to their location, however, the service department isn't open Saturday or Sunday, (go figure) so Carmax told my parents they'd look at it first thing on Monday. Guess what Monday is? That's right, memorial day. My mom swears the service manager told her he'd look at it on Monday, however, she also told me the secretary told her they weren't open on Monday. 30$ says they don't look at it til Tuesday. Now, I'm supposed to have this awesome plan, where if it takes more than one day to fix the car after they've determined whats wrong with it, I get my car 'insurance' plan will pay for a rental car. Which is way awesome. The catch? I only get the car if it's going to take more than 24 hours to fix my car AFTER THEY”VE DECIDED WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT and since that won't be until Monday(or maybe even Tuesday) I'm SOL without a car. Somehow, no one around here seems to care, nor with anyone let me borrow their car. Not even to go to church. I wanted to borrow a car/get a ride from one of them to church tomorrow, and my mom was like, Just call one of your friends, they'll take you. Which is true, they would take me–if I had a friend with a car that went to the same church that I did. Bah. At least I had pizza again tonight(I finished off the leftovers from last night) Yes, I know, I broke my no carb thing, but I'll worry about that later.
Right now, I don't have a car, AND…… since Monday is federal holiday, my dad is home. And I'm stuck in the house with him. Somebody save me….

and I am just now getting upstairs to my room. I went to work like normal, then decided I might as well head to MAG and go to Bible study. It was ok. These next couple of days are killer! On Thursday(tomorrow) and Friday after I get off work at 7, well, I have to go straight downstairs for a work related class. it's three hours long, each day. Thursday and Friday of this week, and Thursday and Friday of next week. I'll be putting in 2 14.9 hour days, back to back. yay me. that's 6 hours of overtime added to my already 7.6 hours of regular over time I work every other week. Yay me. yay money. Now if only I had someone to spend it on….
LOL.
I don't know what to say. work was very boring today, more boring than I think it has ever been. I spent the majority of the day walking around with my clipboard, looking important and causing problems just so I'd have an excuse to stand in one place so I could wait for the engineer to fix it. It was soooo boring, I found myself thinking very weird thoughts…. like, if a person were to drink HF, is there any way to save them? I think maybe there is, if they knew they drank it and medics got to the person fast enough. But if they knew they were drinking HF to begin with.. I'd let 'um die, cause that's just stupid.

I'm tired. and I'm bored. Not a good combination.
I'm going to lay in bed now, unless something happens, I wont get out of it until 5am tomorrow for work.
703-901-4730 if you have anything you want to talk to me about.

Ok, so this will be a weird question, but I would love your responses. Heres the thing: You are madly in love with this man(not married to him, just in a committed relationship.) You go to a baby shower, and ofcourse start thinking about having a child. In talking with him, he tells you that if you ever got pregnant and decided to keep the baby he would leave you. What would you do? How would you feel? If a friend told you that her boyfriend had said that to her, what would you tell that person?

OK, out of the blue, I just decided to post this on my LJ, cause lets face it, its perfect for me. A friend of mine posted it in theirs, and I was like wow, that's me! So here it is.

“Up until this last year of my life, I've always had someone else there. I've been partnered. I LIKE being in relationships. I like the feeling of having that one person to give all my love and time to. I enjoy being devoted. I enjoy having someone to do things with from watching cartoons to going out to somewhere. And as much fun as this last year has been, with all the crazy nights out, the friends, the flirtations, the fleeting romantic moments, etc…all in all it just feels empty when I come home. I want to come home TO someone.”

That's cool, huh?

Also, don't forget to check out my profile for a picture of the great Squirrel of the Leaf!

Rock Lee is the best!

OK, so as you may have noticed, I did a major overhaul of my LJ setup. Mainly, I made it into a sort of Rock Lee theme. If you don't know who that is, than you haven't watched enough Naruto!!! He is a way cool ninja who can only do Taijutsu(hand to hand combat.) When I first saw him in the series I hated him(I thought he was way annoying) but know, as the series has progressed, he has become one of my favorite characters. He has major dedication to his work, and he won't let anyone or anything stand in his way of becoming a great ninja.
Hats off to you, Rock Lee!

someone told me about this site. I thought I'd pass it along

http://www.cicadaville.com/

It's way early in the morning. I should be sleeping. But I'm not. I am very bored. Oh, how I remember the days where I would sleep through the night. Someone told me once that warm milk helps a person sleep. They said heating the milk actually creates a chemical change that helps induce sleep. I would try that now, except I'm still on this low carb kick. Been amazingly easy. I haven't 'cheated', not even once. I like that. Cheating (on anything or anyone) is bad. Hmm. theres a question–I'm on the low carb diet thing. Anyone else been on a diet that has/hasn't worked for them? yay. this post can be all about dieting. lol

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OK, so today is Saturday, and I should be at work. However, I was very sick this morning(sick of work?lol) and I called out. So now I don't work until Wednesday. I just realized I have seen every movie playing in theater except for Shrek 2 and Troy. That's very sad.
Well, I am fairly bored right now. I would continue to ramble on, but what's the point?

OK, so I know I said I wouldn’t be posting for the next couple of days, but I got really bored and work, and HAD to write these two poems down.
Tell me what you think

cold and lonely
Time seems to stop as I lay here
Between this world and the next
eyes fluttering, longing for the dark
longing for the sleep that will not come
In between two worlds, torn apart by each
This world is real, yet so lonely
The next world–happy, yet fake
Gazing into the distance the thoughts come
Visions entice my mind, Apparitions entice my heart
eyes fluttering, longing for the dark
Quietly I give in–quietly I let the darkness consume me
Then suddenly I am there once again
There in that place that knows no sadness
Longing to stay, yet so quickly pulled back to reality
cold and lonely
I’m between this world and the next
eyes fluttering, longing for the dark

ok! One more!

waiting
drip drop, drip drop
waiting
I can feel the air on my face
waiting
The hands of time move so slowly
waiting
waiting, and waiting, and waiting some more
my thoughts drift far away
waiting
the earth moves around the sun
waiting
my body ages, my body slows
waiting
my body stops
I am waiting no longer

OK, so I know I’ve posted a lot of poetry, what can I say? I’m in that sort of mood recently

You all probably won't hear from me in the next 3 days. I have to work, and I've decided that when I come home, I'm going to check my e-mail and then go right to bed. So, if you do want to talk/contact me either e-mail me at nick@ztug.net or call my cell phone. I'll still have AIM and Yahoo up and running, but I'll be using my away messages(more than I already do) I need a vacation.
On a lighter note, season finale of Smallville was awesome, and the series finale of Angel was…. well. It was ok, though I didn't like the ending.
I need to go to work now.
Have a great day everyone.

Who am I?
Where am I going with all this?
What's the point in speaking sometimes,
When I have nothing more to say?
All I say is the same old bullshit,
Blame everyone but myself.
I say it,
But I don't mean it.
The only person I blame for the way I turned out,
Is myself.

So who are you to tell me what I feel?
And who are you to give me advice?
So just because you were beaten,
So just because she was raped,
So just because they were robbed of their soul,
That somehow gives all of you the right
to ignore my pain, and to no longer console
Just because you're life is more fucked up than mine,
My feelings don't mean shit all of a sudden?
My words don't have depth and my tears are forbidden?
Well fuck You!
You hear me?
Fuck you and your answers,
Fuck you and your contradicting lies,
Hypocrisy is our way from the cradle to the grave
And hypocrites are all I've seen through my life,
There's always one in the mirror staring back at me,
My life is just another contradiction too.

But I still hate you all,
The fucking whores of society,
The rapists of my soul,
The loved ones who should be executed,
Just so I can claim a piece of shattered my life,
So maybe I can feel that all this pain I feel,
Finally has a reason for existing.
There's nothing worse than feeling depressed,
Than feeling depressed for no reason.

“I am hungry and lost
Within this brave, new world
I am scattered and tossed
Among this sacred society
I am scared and confused
In this era of technology
I am mistreated and abused
In this age of conformity”

I don't feel like updating. I'm in a mood (bad) and I don't know why. I'm posting some stuff. It has nothing to do with any girl, just stuff I wrote a long time ago and I figured, why not post it on here.

How I long to hear your voice once more! As I sit here typing to you the floodgates open and I begin to weep as our memories come flooding back to me. How I was a fool to let you escape! If only fate could intervene and turn back the hands of the clock, that I may make right all the wrong I have done in your eyes. Ah! Those eyes! Sweet beautiful pools–just by gazing into them could man get lost forever. If only I had one last chance to gaze into those eyes! But then again, should I have that chance, I would never want to let it go.
Such power you hold over my heart. Not one person, nay, not a million persons could ever touch me the way you could. The softness of your voice, the warmth of your touch, the look in your eyes. Oh how this trip into my past has affected me! How I wish that the best day of our past could be the worse day of our future!
There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer, no disease that enough love will not heal, no door that enough love will not bridge, no wall that enough love will not throw down, no sin that enough love will not redeem… It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble, how hopeless the outlook, how muddled the tangle, how great the mistake. A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all. If only we could love enough, you and I would be the happiest people on the planet.
I still know not what to sign…

That was made to be the third 'letter' to an unknown person. There are two others, but I really don't feel like posting them right now.

what time did you start this.. 3:08pm
name.. Nicholas Christopher Clark
date of birth.. May !2, 1982
sex..yes please! (just kidding, male, duh!)
height.. six feet, 1 inch
eye color.. brown
hair color.. dark brown, almost black
location.. Black hole of the universe.. Manassas, VA
where were you born.. Prince William County Hospital, walking distance from Manassas
do you have crush on someone..crush is a strong word. LOL. maybe. Why? Do you have a crush on me?
do you have a bf/gf..no. and I think that's very sad.
current music..no music, not yet anyways
what are you wearing right now.. sweater, pants, a watch, shoes, socks, a bra, (ok, ok, just threw that last one in there to see if you were paying attention)
would you have sex before marriage.. I No!!!
have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers.. hell no!
do you smoke..no! but I have a way awesome lighter if I ever start

do you drink.. sometimes. But I hate drinking alone.
are you ghetto.. . um, no. that's for everyone living in GeorgeTown South
are you a player..I play lots of things, however, females are not one of them.
what are your favorite colors..black/white combos, followed by dark blue
what is your favorite animal.. animal? Ummmm Dragons have you ever gotten your ass kicked..Nope. I'm the one who does the ass kicking
who is your best friend… Levi! and not the jeans!
have you ever beaten someone up.. beat up is such a strong word. I prefer, knocked some sense into…and yes.
have you ever been slapped. what am I, a girl?
do you get online a lot.. I live online.
are you shy or outgoing.. very shy unless I really know you, am talking to you online, or have had a few drinks in me
do you hate school..not a matter of hating. more a matter of wishing it was over.
do you have a social life.. not yet. Anyone wanna help me out with that one?
how easily do you trust people.. very easily. I trust and I trust and I trust. so yay for trust.
have you ever lied to your best friends..never. Levi knows the honest answers to anything he has ever asked me about.
would you ever sky dive.. hell yeah I would
do you like to dance.. I'm Cuban. Its in my genes
have you ever been out of state.. out of state, out of the country. of course. its all the same to me.
do you like to travel.. Yes! yes! yes!
have you ever been suspended from school..almost, but not quite.
are you spoiled.. nope. I earn everything the hard way
are you a brat.. brat? that's a term only to be used on 4 year olds
whats your favorite drink.that's easy. green tea.
do you like snapple.. been a long time since I had it, but the commercials are awesome!
do you drink a lot of water..I'm part fish. yay water
do you have a cell phone or pager.. cell phone–703-901-4730
do you have a curfew.never in my life. omg I would die if I had one.
what name brand do you wear the most.. is JCPenny a brand? LOL, just kidding
what kind of jewelry do you wear.. one ring on my right ring finger, and one watch. both silver looking
what do you have pierced..nothing, yet
what do you want pierced..hey! that's personal! >:I
do you like taking pictures.. I like pictures.. yay for cameras
do you like getting your picture taken.I like to, but I don't think the camera likes me
do you get annoyed easily.. I have no anger issues, I have no anger issues, I have no anger issues…..
have you ever started a rumor..that would be wrong.
do you have your own phone/phone line. yay cell phone.
do you have any siblings…a boy sibling and a girl sibling. how cute.
do you get along with your parents..Mom–yes. Dad–hell no! not in a million years.
have you ever run away..no, but I wanted to
have you ever been fired from a job.. nope. I am an outstanding worker
do you even have a job..Yay Micron!
do you daydream a lot.. all the time! in fact, I'm doing it right now….
do you have a lot of ex's..lets see.. Michelle, Lisa, Candice, and Sabrina. that's 4. is that a lot?
do you talk constantly.. depends on who I'm with.
what do you want a tattoo of… a cross. or Trog dor. or a cool Latin phrase
what do you have a tattoo of..nothing… sadness!
what are your favorite flowers.. Red roses all the way.
have you ever been bitched out.. yes
when was the last time you bitched someone out..never.. cept maybe 2 weeks ago with my sister in law Sierra
are you rude. only to sierra, and sometimes to Sabrina
what was the last compliment you received.. I don't remember
is your bellybutton an innie or outie.. An innie.
what is your heritage..half Cuban, half hick
what does your hair look like right now.. very stylin'. I could be famous with my hair.
could you ever be a vegetarian..OMG…. maybe. lol
when was your last real heartbreak.Sabrina cheating on me, then divorcing me for him.
describe your looks.. I'm not going there. you want a pic? Just ask
would you ever date someone younger than you.. yes, but max would be 4 years younger.
would you ever date someone older than you.. Yes, by a little.
would you rather give or receive oral sex..Umm,. ok, way too personal!
have you ever had an eating disorder.. no
how many rings until you answer the phone.. I try to get it in 3
do you look more like your mother or father.. my evil father.
do you cry a lot.men don't cry… LOL. j/k
do you ever cry to get your way..nope.
if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be..I could always become a eunuch
what phrase do you use most on the phone.“So…..”
are you the romantic type..all the way
have you ever been chased by cops.. nope. and don't plan on it.. unless of course someone makes me what do you like most about your body.. My eyes
when was the last time you threw up.. I don't remember. I don't really get sick
in the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes.. Brunettes, blonds are way awesome too
what do the shoes you last wore look like.black. that's all I know
do you ever wear shirts to show your belly..lol, never
is your best friend a virgin.. depends on your definition of virgin. lol
have you ever fucked someone up.. what the hell does that mean?
what color are your toenails right now.. um, the regular toenail color, duh!
what theme does your room have..no theme, just lots of movie posters.. I'm doing for the whole, my bedroom is a livingroom thing
what size shoe do you wear.. 10.5
what jewelry are you wearing now.. the same I said above. I never take the ring off
what is your screen name on AIM.. dutamus777
would you pick a wedgie in public.. gross
how are you feeling right now.. BORED!!
when was the last time you were at a party.. I threw a party New Years Eve. I was the only sober person there. I wrote an LJ entry about it
have you ever given a lap dance..ummmm no!
what do you sleep in..black boxer-briefs
would you marry for money..if the girl was hott, was very nice, and I might one day be able to love her…. yes
what do you drive.. 1996 Mercury Sable
have you ever given or received road head… no. Never.
are you more of a mama or daddys child.. my mom is cool
when was the last time you cried in school.. never done that either
do you wear chucks.. wtf is that?
for two million dollars, would you pose for playboy..I'm a guy…do I want men looking at me? for 2 million dollars, I wouldn't give a damn.
what friend can you tell anything to.. Levi
what friend makes you laugh the most.. Levi
what friend can make anything funny.. Daniel, Josh, and Levi
what time are you finishing this.. 3:43pm

I found Lyrics to “Hey Mister” by Custom.

Hey Mister I really like your daughter,
I’d like to eat her like ice cream
maybe dip her in chocolate

Hey Mister on your way over
in your Volvo, suit, and tie
Well, be crawling in your bed soon
messing around, maybe getting high

It’s not what ya did,
It’s not what ya didn’t
God gave her a perfect body
and now I’m all up in it.

It’s not she’s a tramp.
It’s not she’s not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good for that I’m sure

Hey Mister I really like your daughter.
When I’m horny like thirsty
She’s a bottle of water.

Hey Mister how’d it get so bad
You raised her so well
and now she’s calling me dad
in the back seat naked of a new Volkswagen
the perfect little gift for high school graduation.

It’s not what ya did,
It’s not what ya didn’t
God gave her a perfect body
and now I’m all up in it.

It’s not she’s a tramp.
It’s not she’s not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good for that I’m sure

Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
ha hahaha ha ha haha

I eat all the food in your fridge
Call my friends around the world
Rack up your long distance do
Breakstands neutral drops
Wreck all your cars
Drink all the booze in your cheezy ass wet bar
Order stuff on your credit cards
Leave boogers in the skippy jar
Smoke your cigars
Answer the phone tell your boss you moved to mars
When you call in late from work tell your wife
You’re at the titty bars

It’s not what ya did,
It’s not what ya didn’t
God gave her a perfect body
and now I’m all up in it.

It’s not she’s a tramp.
It’s not she’s not pure.
She just likes getting her fuck on,
and its good for that I’m sure

I can’t lie I have to tell the truth
My commandments says I’m a total spoof
Your daughter’s a freak
Your daughter’s a pro
When I’m done with her
She’ll do one of your bros

I hope I’ll never have a daughter
I hope I’ll never have a daughter
I hope I’ll never have a daughter
I hope I’ll never have a daughter

Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana na,
Nana na nana naaaaaaaa!

So yeah. please no one respond telling me how horrible the song is. I know its horrible. But its a breath of fresh air….