I hate being so committed to work

It's about 6am and I'm about to leave for work. I don't have to be at work til 9, but I'll end up getting there about 7. So I'll do something very *illegal* and work for 2 hours off the clock. Why? Because theres alot to get done before the DM visits on Thursday.

Being this committed to work(so committed that I'd wake up early to go in without being paid, and will probably stay late without being paid) scares me. I don't want to be a workaholic. I want to have a life. I haven't been to Mosaic or any Mosaic events in two weeks, and I'm starting to feel as though I have no friends.

I got invited over to dinner by Matt and Abby and had to turn it down–because I was working.

I'm scared I'll make this a habit, and when I finally have someone to share my life with(read: a girlfriend) I won't be able to break it. I do not want to end up like my dad–married with three kids and not knowing any of them, and just working and sleeping for the rest of my life.

*sigh* and I'm tired. But now so wide awake theres no hope of going back to sleep. I still don't sleep at night. I stay up til 3-4am just lying awake in bed…not sleeping. It stinks. Maybe I really should look into getting some sleeping pills. LOL, maybe I just need a massage and a hot bath.

I'm gonna go. Lots of work to do(obviously) but I managed to find a (somewhat) funny comic online for you all. It's big though, so I left it behind the cut.