I'm finally typing it out.

I love her.

BIG EDIT: Theres no way that I love/loved her. I might say it, and really really believe it, but if you look at how I treated her when we were together, theres no way that a rational person would come to the conclusion that I loved her. My actions towards her did not emulate 1st Corinthians 13. As for my current 'I love her' statement, that remains to be seen. True, I have deep affection for her, and we have chemistry and compatability, but I haven't been given the chance to relate to her in a way that might show whether or not I love her. I don't even know if I'll ever even get that chance. I hope I do, but theres no way to tell for sure, and infact if I had to venture a guess, I'd say that I never will get that chance. Yes, this epiphany was hard to accept, and even harder to type out for all of you. But you all left alot of comments, so you deserve to know my conclusion of all this.