Props to Shelly

My boss gave me Sunday and Monday off of work.

Thats so awesome!

Shelly, I know you have no idea what a livejournal is, but I’m giving you ‘mad props’ on here anyway.

Seriously folks. Shelly is wicked cool.

And my vacation was just extended another 2 days! Woooohoooo!

Reconciliation

I’ve typed an email to Rhema’s parents as well as her pastor about being ready to get together and reconcile. It’s been sitting in my ‘draft’ box for about a day now. For some reason, I can’t seem to bring myself to hit the ’send’ button. Am I afraid? Am I not ready? Maybe I need more time. But it’s already been over nine months. Still, I want to do this right, with confidence and boldness that I know comes from God.

I’m going to pray more. Something doesn’t feel right-and I don’t want to ‘rush’ this and meet with them before God’s timing. Peace and reconciliation are awesome things, but when done in my timing and not in God’s, it can totally suck.

O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.

For your arrows have pierced me,
and your hand has come down upon me.

Because of your wrath there is no health in my body;
my bones have no soundness because of my sin.

My guilt has overwhelmed me
like a burden too heavy to bear.

My wounds fester and are loathsome
because of my sinful folly.

I am bowed down and brought very low;
all day long I go about mourning.

My back is filled with searing pain;
there is no health in my body.

I am feeble and utterly crushed;
I groan in anguish of heart.

All my longings lie open before you, O Lord;
my sighing is not hidden from you.

My heart pounds, my strength fails me;
even the light has gone from my eyes.

My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds;
my neighbors stay far away.

Those who seek my life set their traps,
those who would harm me talk of my ruin;
all day long they plot deception.

I am like a deaf man, who cannot hear,
like a mute, who cannot open his mouth;

I have become like a man who does not hear,
whose mouth can offer no reply.

I wait for you, O LORD;
you will answer, O Lord my God.

For I said, “Do not let them gloat
or exalt themselves over me when my foot slips.”

For I am about to fall,
and my pain is ever with me.

I confess my iniquity;
I am troubled by my sin.

Many are those who are my vigorous enemies;
those who hate me without reason are numerous.

Those who repay my good with evil
slander me when I pursue what is good.

O LORD, do not forsake me;
be not far from me, O my God.

Come quickly to help me,
O Lord my Savior.

I read this and felt like posting it. I’m not really sure why. I also…updated one of my previous posts. And it has been the hardest thing I’ve had to do thus far in this situation.